heyimkatie

So we're having issues with the lending. When i went in initially and gave her all my info she said that all we'd need to pay when we close is our downpayment and that would be due about 4 or 5 days prior to closing. Okay, cool. We can do that. Apparently we also have to cover closing costs (which she had initially said is usually included in the offer) ..but apparently it wasn't in the offer and now we're responsible for that to.

So we're supposed to have over 10,000 by the end of January.. ?? If so.. then we can't get the house. We can't do that.

I feel so stupid right now. I keep telling our realtor and our lender that they need to help me figure this stuff out..

I'VE NEVER BOUGHT A HOUSE! YOU NEED TO TELL ME THIS SHIT!

I keep asking both of them for just something written out explaining what is what and how we do it.. and all they say is that they I can call them anytime. Well that's great and all but I WON"T REMEMBER EVERYTHING!

I'm getting frustrated, annoyed and wondering if my misunderstanding is all my fault. I keep asking questions over and over and I get so damn confused! How am I supposed to understand everything if every time I ask a question, they say not to worry about it?

I don't know what to do. Nick is getting pissed because he said he thought I had everything figured out.. which I thought I did..

But seriously.. why is everything on my shoulders?!? Why can't they just SEND ME SOMETHING that says "this is $xxx and is due ___, This is $xxx and is due ___"  HOW THE HELL IS THAT DIFFICULT?!?

I try to buy what I can at the dollar store. We have a very carefully planned budget that we really try to stick to. A lot of our bills are on automatic payments.. which in turn, reduces the amount due. We've cut back on holiday spending. We don't go out to eat as much. And after I take my new job, we're going to try to get on the same shifts at least part of the week so we can carpool together and save gas money.

I suppose us buying a house isn't cutting back. lol.. but we're doing it at a great time and it will be better for us, financially, than renting.

I hated playing basketball and dogeball. It always seemed like those two things were always done when the gym teachers were feeling lazy. I hate playing basketball plus it sucked to have to play with kids that took it soo damn seriously. They'd do all their fancy crap and never give the ball to anyone. I hated it! Dodgeball sucked because they'd always go for my face and then say "oh it was an accident" when I'd get slammed inthe mouth.

I LOVED gym in high school though. We got to choose which course we wanted and I took the biking/tennis one twice, winter games (sledding & other snow games), and then I also took the softball/golf one. It was so much fun for each of those.

That's what was written on the shirt that I wore for work at the grocery store 7 years ago. I know I won't ever forget.

I was in choir. A teacher came in and pulled Ruth out of the room. Then they both walked in and Ruth said, "I can't even describe what's going on right now..but we are living history..." and then the other teacher proceeded to tell us that America was under attack. We turned on TV shortly after the second tower was hit.

I saw the towers fall in Algebra II. We cried. The teachers cried. Never have I heard such silence in a high school. No one spoke and when we did it was in hushed whispers. A girl in my Algebra class was almost in hysterics because her mom was at the Pentagon and she couldn't get through on a cell phone. All day we watched and mourned.

In my final class of the day we saw people in different parts of the world celebrating our tragedy. They burned our flag and praised our deaths. I was infuriated. I was beyond infuriated.. I was so mad I got dizzy. I couldn't fanthom why anyone would celebrate a mass killing of innocent people.

We were a unified country in the wake of 9/11. We stood together and said we would overcome. We hugged each other. We mourned together. We looked for hope together.

Then what happened? Part of me feels that the terrorists consider 9/11 a victory. Since then our country has divided in two. We're so busy going after each other and arguing about what to do that we're getting lost in it all. There's mud slinging and people taking things out of context and outright lying. All to prove to the "other side" that "we're right." What does that help? Aren't we all on the same side? If we spend all our time going after each other then how are we supposed to do anything to prevent another 9/11?

At what point will people stop saying "it's my way or no way" and try to find a middle ground? When will we take care of our country and heal together?

We will never forget the events that happened on September 11, 2001. May God help those who lost loved ones on that terrible day and all of us who still feel sick when we remember.

Since I don't have hardly any public entries.. I figured I might as well make one. :)

I was recently told by someone (..who isn't a doctor and only knew me over the internet) that I have a "mental illness"  Now I'm not one to hide that I was diagnosed as manic depressive when i was 16, then rediagnosed as manic/bipolar at the age of 20.  Funny how this somehow makes me "psycho"  It runs in my paternal side of the family and that's most likely how/why I have it. It's not a big deal because I'm able to keep it under control with a low dosage of Welbutrin. All it really means is that I'll go through stages of mania (where I'm feeling great, can conquer the world, etc) and that's usually followed by a very bad episode of depression. It wasn't constant.. mostly comes and goes with hormone changes, general attitude, and sometimes the weather (worse in the winter).  

But apparently it makes me a bad person a "psycho"  ......

This coming from a girl who has assisted in making false reports to govenment agencies about someone she only knew online, stalked people online to delete profiles, AND is in her own extremely screwed up relationship.   But apparently she has room to judge me.

I honestly don't get why people who live in a sense of false reality are always so willing to just attack anyone else.

Take someone who is sick of being judged for having money and staying at home all day...but then makes other people feel like crap because we actually have to work our ASSES OFF for a living. Not all of us have the money to get our families all organic food that was grown in a hippy's barn in Iowa that was fertilized with fresh cow shit and all they were fed was organic food.  We don't all have the time to spend ALL DAY on a forum. It'll slow down.. people will do other things. It's called Having A Life.. it's actually quite fun. :)

Previously, I had no issues with either of these people. I had never experienced the hatred, lies, and downright idiocy of either of them until some recent drama unfolded. Then it was a big ol' slam in the face.  I honestly thought they were nice people who, sure, had some quirks but we all do!  ..but then they became hateful, spiteful, and degrading. That doesn't fly with me. At all.

So let's revisit this again...

I'm bipolar but I am on a treatment plan that works quite effectively. I've held down a job for over 3 years, am a responsible, happily married adult, and currently going to school to better my life..

..but I'm being called psycho by a woman who TTC despite horrible financial and relationship standing, who stalks people on the internet to screw up their profiles and whatever on forums, and who will (in the same message) call me a f'ing bitch and then say that she wants to be my friend.

My recommendation- that SHE look into bipolar disorder. I do know the signs and symptoms.. it's nothing to be ashamed of. But she should definately get help ASAP.

Well, after much convincing from a few friends, I've decided to make a Live Journal account. And since MFN is down (nooo! *sob*) I figure I might as well work on this today.

Work is pretty slow right now. I'm caught up with as much as I can get caught up with at the moment. The owners are all in a meeting interviewing a (hopefully) new plumber. If we hire this guy, we will have THREE Gary's working here. We will have Gary B, Gary D, and (maybe, if he's hired) Gary T. Why do they all have the have a last name starting with a letter that rhymes? Not fair for the secretary! Now customers will be really confused when they ask to speak with "Gary" and I give them a choice of door number 1, 2, or 3.

Last night I actually got sleep and I feel guilty for it. I wanted to go out with Nick last night but the previous two nights I'd gotten 6 hours of sleep.. TOTAL. about 3 hours each night. I was really emotional and tired last night. So, I ended up taking 2 sleeping pills and was knocked out by 11pm. I also slept in longer than normal. I didn't wake up until 6:32am. I had been hitting snooze for a half hour at that point. lol. So I got up, pulled my hair into a ponytail, brushed my teeth, washed my face, put on a bit of make up, got dressed and left for work by 6:45. lol, not bad huh?

Well, I think i'll mosey around here a bit more and see what I can figure out about this site.